Dear my best friend that so far away...

Dear my best friend in this whole world,

    Someone had held my hand.

    Someone had hugged me.

    Someone had made dreams come true.

    Someone had said that he'd be mine forever.

    Someone was to be at my side whenever it was needed.

    Someone had cried when I did.

    Someone had laughed when I did.

    Someone couldn't stop looking at me.

    Someone had made me the most important person in his life.

    Someone had loved me.

And you know what,  he does no more. Or probably does but never shows. I don't know but whatever it is, I really thinks it's sunset again. Another long wait for the sunrise while I have to battle with the dark once more. Pain and sorrow again faces me. In fact, challenges me to look it in the face. I am falling and no one's there to catch me.

    Dear my best friend, I need your shoulder to cry on. But you're so far away. We live in different continents.

Just so you  know, I cried loads a few weeks, more than ever. But I'm still fighting. Fighting for my love. I'm not doing it the best way, but after all, I'm not just fighting for him. I'm fighting for me and him. So, I need to make sure that we BOTH are happy at the end. Which is so impossible.

But I'm trying, ain't I? Fingers crossed and hoping for the very best for both of us. After all, it's we who make all the difference, not him and me alone.

    Dear my best friend, hopefully when we meet again, I'm no longer as mess as now.

Best regards,

  Oliv, your lovely friend.